This post will change your life

My title made me think of something my friend Jason said recently. I can't remember what it was, but it was funny and had to do w/ The Shins and Natalie Portman. I bet you wish you knew what he said, right? Or you don't care. Most likely the latter.

I have to tell you, I haven't really felt like writing anything lately. As if that weren't obvious by the fact that I haven't. I no longer find joy in making fun of celebrities. Or Paris Hilton. What's happening to me? Have my priorities shifted? When did this happen...and most importantly, why???

So Thanksgiving is two days away and I feel like I have little to give thanks for. That sounds terrible, but other than the usual (friends, family, health) what else is there? I can't think of a damn thing, someone help me out! Oh forget it.

Watched "Sideways" last night. I really loved it, but I can't really pinpoint why. I don't always have to have a reason for liking things, sometimes I just do. And watched "Everwood" of course. Not to demean the beautiful act of lovemaking, but Amy and Ephram totally did it.

I have several things I really want to change about myself, but have realized lately that altering one's behavior is quite the difficult task. For example, this little self deprication thing I like to do is starting to really piss me off. B/c although I may say it w/ that "Ha ha I hate myself" attitude sometimes I really mean it. Okay, I don't hate myself, I just think things about me that I once tried to convince myself were cute and quirky are in reality annoying, pathetic, and frankly scars on a borderline flawless personality. Honestly, I have quite a high opinion of myself- why else would I always think I'm right? That I know the codes of human behavior and it is but my duty to share them w/ others. Those who are privy to such information should feel blessed. Oh burdened, either/or.

I have nothing else to say really. I'm a little bored, things are slow, w/ the holiday approaching and what not. But I'm looking forward to taking the time off. To do nothing. B/c I'm broke.
R.